thanks for that, good to know there are actually some decent people out there.
i’m an ugly, retarded piece of shit. my life’s not going anywhere, i was fucked from the beginning. my family (you can’t even really call it that at all) isn’t the reason why i haven’t killed myself. the one and only reason i haven’t killed myself is because i’ve never experienced real pain so i’m afraid of what it’ll feel like. what the fuck is the point of living when i’m hated literally everywhere i go because i’m black or whatever (some people call me black and some people call me brown, i don’t know or give a fuck what race i am to be completely honest with you, i’m a crossbreed of the two most unattractive races on the planet, and that’s not even my own definition, it’s society’s). i’m too stupid to complete even the simplest of tasks, that’s why i’ve only had two jobs (i was the worst worker there for both of them). my situation with girls is laughable and it’s mostly my fault for being ugly as fuck. i’m disgustingly skinny, i probably have an eating disorder or some shit and to even get to a normal weight i’d have to eat obnoxious amounts of food every day for like a year so that’s never gonna happen. i have no talents, i have a nice camera but i suck at taking photos and taking care of my camera and lenses, i’ve been skateboarding for the longest time and i’m fucking horrible at it, i like listening to music but i literally don’t know anything about it, i’m bad at every sport i’ve ever tried playing. i like to try saying i make art but that’s not fucking art, that’s complete fucking garbage. everyone likes to say that “things will get better” or give you all sorts of examples of people overcoming all sorts of different shortcomings but that’s all fuckin bullshit. i don’t understand why people feel the need to talk others out of suicide, honestly. every aspect of my life is complete shit and as much as i’d like to blame someone else, i don’t think i can. i definitely won’t kill myself though, because i’m too big of a pussy. i hope people i know irl read this too, i’d rather have everyone know how i really feel about my situation.